tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-297860902011-07-08T00:33:55.938-04:00You're only given a little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. <br><br> -Robin Williamssparknoreply@blogger.comBlogger1291100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29786090.post-41096589332165779252007-11-04T14:05:00.002-05:002010-03-18T20:13:51.828-04:00

after way way WAY too much time, I finally have an update! (sorry it took so long!) our little girl was born on August 12, 2007 at 11:46pm (8 lbs, 15 ounces * 21 inches)she is so sweet and I'm completely in love...

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The u/s went well - the SCH looks smaller and the baby was measuring almost to date - 12w2d (only off by 1 day). From my untrained eye I'd say it's about 1/3rd smaller. So it's still considered "large" (6cm x 4.5cm at widest part of the transverse view) but the peri could tell that the blood was clotted which is good. So if I continue to spot brown then it will continue to shrink. Yay!And the

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This week has been tough but I am hoping we're going to pull through. We went to our NT scan on Monday and saw Fish squirming around and looking like a real little baby. He was measuring exactly to date - cool. Since I only had minimal spotting at this point I had assumed that the SCH had gone away. So I asked the doctor at the radiology center if he could still see the remnants of my SCH and

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Where to begin. I've been a bad blogger and haven't posted any recent updates. Here was my update that I was going to post last week:Life is back to normal. The bleeding/cramping tapered off earlier this week and now I'm barely spotting. So I'm hoping that the SCH has healed. We will get another peek at it on Monday when we go back to the same radiology center for our nuchal translucency

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This past week I was starting to feel a lot more confidant in the pregnancy. I said "pregnant" outloud. I ordered a doppler to listen to Fish's heartbeat. I lurked on regular (non-IF) pregnancy boards. I even ordered thank you gifts for both of my REs. I planned to tell another friend this coming weekend when she was in town. I was starting to come up with a list of possible vacation spots

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DH and I have been debating on when to tell various people about Fish. When we had our first BFP there were a slew of people on IF message boards and blogland who knew immediately. Along with a few close people in real life who knew we were cycling.And then after hearing the heartbeat last week we started to spill the beans to immdiate family and some other people who knew that we were going

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Unfortunately work got busy this afternoon after I got back and didn't have time to post an update. Sorry! :(Fish is alive! (pic) And measuring pretty close to age (7w2-3d vs. 7w5d).  So he has made a little progress in the last two weeks - he was 3-4d behind at our 1st u/s. We saw and heard the heartbeat flicker (so cool) as well but the doc didn't give us the heart rate.  He said

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We had such a great weekend. On Saturday we had about 12 people over for a bowl game. I love cooking & baking so I enjoyed all of the prep. And it was fun to hang out until exhaustion took over. I actually snuck upstairs and took a nap for the second half - guess I'm not the best hostess. And then Sunday we went over to a friend's house and played games all night. No one even noticed that I

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I've never been so excited to be sick before. Last night I was worthless when I got home from work - overcome by a mix of exhaustion & queasy stomach & overall yuck feeling. Even this morning I'm feeling it again. So I'm taking all of that as a good sign that Fish is still alive & growing. Positive thoughts, right?And my stomach is feeling extremely bloated. Maybe from my poor food choices?

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What is there to say. I guess I'm in speechless limbo land because I don't quite feel PG yet and there really isn't much to do except to wait between appointments. So our next u/s will be on Jan 3rd - hopefully we'll see a bean & heartbeat then(7w5d). And if that goes well my first OB appt is the following Monday. I'm still a little anxious because my initial beta was low (indicator of possible m

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I called the nurse line at my ob/gyn's office to figure out next steps (I seriously doubt they would have ever called me with results). I talked to super super nice nurse so I think I'm going to go back there again - at least to get things started. Based on doped-up doc's (DUD) report, they are fairly convinced there is no ectopic so no worries there. I also doubt it as well so I'm not going

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OK - that was a freaky afternoon. DH and I went to see my ob/gyn for our 1st u/s. The ultrasound woman used to work at an IVF center - cool. Sees a sac right away - only one - cool. She says that the u/s machine doesn't measure below 5w so she can't get a measurement. Interesting because I'm theoretically 5w5d. And then she checks out my tubes & ovaries just to make sure everything looks

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I've had a lot of the same feelings as Lola on being on "the other side" of infertility. Disbelief. Guilt. The good news is that I did stop POAS a few days ago - it started to seem excessive - even to me. I'm sure you'll be glad to not see any more HPTs on here. :)But on the other hand the next month or two still seem so tentative - there is so much going on right now with the embryo (or

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Just got results back from beta #3 - such a relief. 14dpo = 11dp3dt = 43 (E2=275 , P4=45)18dpo = 15dp3dt = 550 (E2=807, P4=56); doubling time=26hrs21dpo = 18dp3dt = 2128 (E2=942, P4=62); doubling time=37hrsoverall doubling rate is 29hrsEach step that we take seems to be so monumental. Next step is ultrasound to check for a sac on Wednesday (5w5d). And then another one in 7w to check for

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We were thinking about sending out a photo holiday card this year - what do you think? should I add in a newsletter in the voice of the embryos? or put a little "I heart NY" t-shirt on them? ;)Just to keep things simple we're going to go to my ob/gyn for the ultrasound rather than finding another RE. Unfortunately they only do ultrasounds on Wednesdays (LOL!) so that got pushed off until next

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I asked my doctor and he's letting do my next beta today instead of waiting until Friday - phew! I'm not going to hassle the lab company though so I won't be surprised if my results don't get up to NYC until after business hours. So I might not hear until tomorrow. But I'm feeling much better because my HPTs have been getting much darker. Here are my last three internet cheapies:11dp3dt - can

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Thank you to everyone for all of your kind thoughts & words. I can't imagine going through all of this without your understanding and advice. And I apologize for being so self-absorbed lately - I'm hoping to get back to some kind of normalcy this week. On a sadder note, my heart goes out to Lisa - there is absolutely nothing about IF that is fair. And best wishes to Lola and Mr. & Mrs. Blue

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It took a few phone calls but the local lab did finally send up the bloodwork before my RE's office shut down today. Phew.Got the call from the RE literally the second I dropped my pants to POAS -- LOL! I don't seem to have my pants on for most of our important conversations so I guess it shouldn't be that weird. It's extra funny to me because he made a joke to me at my lap that after all of

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This just doesn't seem real - at all. My result lines are still very faint - even as of this morning which is my theoretical "first day of expected period". Maybe this was just a test to see if something could implant - and it did. That alone is very reassuring - I was starting to wonder if my ute was a pit of despair that no embryo could survive for more than a few hours. But at least one

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DH went out last night to get another brand because I don't 100% trust the internet cheapies and FRER hasn't shown me what I want to see yet. So generic CVS brand is now my friend - it showed a vertical line within a couple of minutes (PHEW!) and I think it's dark enough to see in a photograph now. So now we just need to get a decent # at our beta tomorrow and maybe it will seem real? Does it

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Last night I got another faint positive from an internet cheapie and a FRER, but this morning the FRER was negative. I've gotten two more positives on the ICs though which were still very light. Probably will try another FRER this evening and buy some other brands tomorrow if the ICs continue to look positive. I have a digital but won't waste it until I'm sure my levels are higher. I'm just in

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...because I can't tell if this is an evaporation line or not...and I've been staring at it for the past 20 minutes trying to figure out if I'm imagining it or if it's grey (not pink)? Are you f'ing with me, Mr. Internet Cheapie HPT? I've never ever seen a second line before so that would not be very nice. I feel dizzy and nauseous. My acupuncturist also said she felt a strong rolling pulse,

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For me I *need* to have a plan B in place before I POAS. It gives me something to focus on and not feel that the world is coming to an end when I see that bright white space staring back at me. So if this cycle doesn't work out, I am:1) taking Friday/Saturday off from the world to grieve; drink a bottle or two of nice red wine; maybe share some with DH2) drinking heavily with friends at the

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I'm still feeling pretty numb about this whole experience. Went in today for my first luteal bloodwork. I went to a national lab place to get it done. MUCH cheaper than the overpriced RE that I used for the early monitoring visits. But I find this place to be very uncomfortable. Especially when I have to wait in a crowded waiting room for an hour next to a smelly old man. Yuck.Anyway if I

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Today I was overcome by a feeling of numbness. My eyes are glazed over and I'm just counting down the minutes until I can slip out of work to go home.Yesterday I started a list of reasons why I should be really excited about this cycle. We made some big changes that will hopefully result in a BFP next Friday. Today this list doesn't seem to matter at all to me. In the end it feels like it's all

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I'm feeling much calmer today - partly because I had a nice acupuncture session last night (even fell asleep!) and partly because we were reunited with our first baby last night. Maggie was staying at "camp" while we were out of town and there wasn't a good time to pick her up until yesterday ("camp" is pretty far outside the city - past a traffic nightmare). She looks sooooo happy. Happy that

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My emotions are ALL over the place today - I almost cried twice on the drive to work - for no reason. And my stomach is all over the place too. Must be the elevated E2. Random nerve-wracking pains in my gut too. Argh - I just want to go home. Good thing I only have a couple mtgs today so I don't need to see too many people. Anyway I just got a call from the RE's office - we have 1 frozen

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Thank you for all of the kind words that mean so much to me. We took the babies on their first roadtrip today - they got the full tour of the NJ Turnpike and I-95 South. Their favorite part was getting a decaf latte at Chesapeake House in Maryland. Here is a more artistic pic of them - doesn't the B&W really show the emotion? I was debating between that and sepia. OK - so I've only had a

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Not the best pic (no scanner up here), but here are the babies. So much cuter than their older siblings. Hopefully they are as pretty on the inside as they are on the outside. And hopefully they like their new home and decide to stick around for a long time.There are 8 other embryos (6 good ones & 2 questionable) that they are taking out to blast and will freeze if any look good. My favorite

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Just got a call from the doctor asking if we wanted to transfer 3 or 4. There are 9 embryos that are doing well! After we talked about our history (IVF failures) and thoughts on reduction he suggested transferring three. I had a moment of f'it and go for four, but do trust his opinion. So three it is. Embryos K, L, M are coming home this afternoon! ACK!

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final E2 (Thursday) was 3184# retrieved = 13# mature = 12# fertilized (ICSI) = 11start PIO today (1cc)Back for the transfer on Monday at 2pm. Guess we'll see how well they'll grow then - hopefully the co-culture helps. I feel like an a$$ for whining so much.

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Thank you for all of your kind words over the past few days - I really appreciate it! I'm really OK with ICSI in general - just in our experience we didn't do as well with it. And I'm more worried about what caused the sperm degradation in the first place -- could it also be affecting some non-obvious aspects to quality as well? So then we'd end up with more dud embryos - if they even fertilize

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My retrieval was this morning and I'm just so upset now. Get there very early & wait around for a while. Fine - everyone in the waiting room is friendly and there are plenty of magazines. Put on my stylish PJs.A couple hours later I finally go back to the procedure room. I let the anesthesiologist know that I was a bit nauseous (RE there said it might be from elevated E2) and he says that he'll

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I'm exhausted and heading to bed in a few minutes, but I wanted to post again before my retrieval tomorrow. Trigger last night was fine - only 4000IUs though which I thought was odd since my E2 doesn't seem that high. And today has been a bizarre Thanksgiving. Didn't really feel like a holiday at all. I had my pre-op appointment (follicles up to 18-19mm) and N got a bar of antibacterial soap

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A few years ago N and I attended his grandmother's 80th birthday party and I met some of his extended family. One of his cousin's kids was a real character. He was about 4 years old and ran around playing games & amusing everyone. At one point he lost a game and said in his best cartoon-character voice "Boiled again!" N and I started cracking up. And now, years later, we still say "Boiled

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I feel so much better today - thank you again for all of your kind words. Very much appreciated.I did see my own RE this morning and it looks like my follicles got busy last night. They are mostly up around 15-16mm so he wants to give it one more day of stims. So then trigger tomorrow (Wednesday), ER on Friday, ET on Monday. And we'll probably head back home on Tuesday. I don't think this

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My emotions are all over the place right now and I even had a mini breakdown at the RE's office today over something very stupid. Last night my RE called with my results and said he wanted to do my u/s himself today (normally it rotates across several docs) and I should get there by 7:30am. Cool. So I wake up feeling rested and excited to see my RE (I really heart him). The traffic cop at my

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Tulips I bought some tulips for my apartment and thought they looked beautiful in the morning sun. Work has been busy (conference calls and emails) and the DSL wasn't working in the apartment when I first got here so I haven't been online much. Let me recap...Wednesday:- Finally got my period so I got worried about my lining. - DH drove me to the train station - I'm missing him lots

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Today was hectic. Lots going on at work and then lots going on at home to get ready for my trip. I had another meltdown after work today. Poor hubby - he must think I'm a freakshow. Good thing that he is so understanding and didn't go running for the door. Also a good thing that the pug is so hilarious - definitely helped lighten things up tonight. I'm thinking that I should just bring him

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I forgot all of the fun... This morning I went in for my baseline appointment - simple bloodwork & ultrasound, right? I almost passed out when the receptionist told me the cost. It was almost 3x more than my old RE's office would have charged and 2x more than my NYC RE charged for a similiar appointment last month. WTF?! Why on earth did I not ask about this before? I definitely should

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Windy Run We had incredible weather on Saturday so we skipped most of our errands and just enjoyed the day. On our way to pick up Nick's new car, we stopped at a cute little cafe and ate outside with Maggie. Everyone around us gave her some lovin' and she ate it up. When we got home Nick spent a significant amount of time in the driveway playing with his new toy (LOL!). In the afternoon

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After a lot of ups & downs today I think I've found a solution for lodging. I found another (cheaper) corp apt that is available for the core days that I should need to be in NYC. So I'll stay in Brooklyn for the first night and I might need to find a hotel for a couple of days at the end if I stim for more than 8 days. The good thing is that I won't need to fax in my registration info (payment)

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I think I'm majorly screwed for lodging for NYC. I had a corporate apartment lined up that was perfect (location, price, dates), but I waited too long and now it's booked. There are some hotels available, but they won't have a refrigerator which I need for the meds or a kitchen for me to prepare some meals. And most of the hotels really aren't all that close. Also to get the good rate at the

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...for yesterday's vote showed just how backwards the people in my state are. I can understand why there is a close race for the Sen.ate (which is still pending - keeping my fingers crossed). Lots of different issues there. But to have a clear majority of people who think that it is A-OK to ban the rights of others? That makes me want to puke. OK - it might really just be the BCP upsetting

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I'm so impressed with my new RE. I FAXed him with some questions around 4:30 today...and I get a call from him on his cell (heading home?) around 5:30. He is so nice. I heart him!!Anyway so he said that my endo was between stage II - III and was all over the place (behind the ute, in front, on ovaries, etc.). My tubes & insides of my uterus looked fine (he also did a hysteroscopy). So the

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It's funny...I am completely fine with the general anesthesia and all of the meds they pumped through me last week...but yesterday (CD3) I took my first BCP in a long time and it made me *extremely* nauseous. It's such a teeny tiny pill and it kicked my a$$. I'll try to take it with food today. So I'm on BCPs for about a week to recover from the lap and then I stop. Once I get my period again

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My lap went well yesterday. Turns out that I did have lots of endo and the RE removed it. So now I'm trying to research whether it's better to jump right into another IVF cycle (after being freshly "cleaned out") or to look at additional treatments (Lupr0n Dep0t) before starting. After having unexplained IF all of this time, having a diagnosis is in some ways reassuring. I know what it is (

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NYC has been very busy. I stayed with a friend in Brooklyn for the first couple of days and spent a significant amount of time moving from one place to another - on the subway, on foot, and in a cab. I checked into the medical hotel last night and have really, really enjoyed not moving. Some random highlights from my trip so far:- I *love* Brooklyn -- it has so many cute restaurants & shops...

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Since I'm having a hard time posting comments on some blogs (thank you, Blogger Beta) I thought I'd share my comments on here...I hope that the Hotel Manager at the Embryo Motel gets some relief soon. That does NOT sound like fun. Also I've met a bobcat at a couple points in my life as well - for two different types of growth spurts. And congrats to Serenity on the job offers. You rock! Good

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I love the beach - any time of the year. Actually I might like it more in the off season when it's not overrun by people. Having spent so much of my childhood at the beach ("down the shore") I can't imagine living any further from it than we are right now (2-3 hrs). Rivers and lakes are a nice water fix for me, but there is something about the salty smell and the sound of the waves that makes

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Heard back from the coordinator today (who again answered the phone on my first attempt!) - current plan looks like:10/30 - bloodwork for co-culture10/31 - endo biopsy for co-culture + pre-op appt11/2 - lap surgerySo it looks like I'll be spending the whole week up in NYC! And I'm waiting to hear back from the IVF nurse (who also answered the phone immediately! and has a v. cool accent) about

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After all of the confusing semi-dark OPK tests I finally got a nice & dark one today at work. Which means that I can't do the co-culture biopsy on 11/2 -- it'd be too late in my cycle (needs to be no more than 12 days past my LH surge). I called the coordinator who surprisingly answered on my first attempt (I've heard she can be difficult to track down). She said that I can do the biopsy on 10

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these little pink lines on the OPKs are killing me -- they've been getting darker & darker today and as of tonight are *almost* as dark as the control line...meaning that I will probably surge soon. a little too soon to get into this upcoming cycle schedule with the new RE (their lab is shut down right now)...probably pushing us out to January for IVF#3. we did our first IVF last January and I

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I just got back some of the results back from our testing earlier this month - everything so far looks normal except for elevated white blood cells...> my karotype results came back normal - and good to know that I AM in fact a female for anyone who was wondering > still waiting on DH's karotype results> elevated white blood cells - from a cold? I think I did have a sore throat back then...or is

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Still no surge yet - yay! I saw that someone from NYCDoc's office tried to call me a couple of times over lunch today - but left no message. WTF? Now I'm dying to know why! And I had a great bitch session with my boss today. *He* started off complaining about the rash of stoooopid decisions in our company lately - and then I jumped in of course. OK - so I like my boss. That makes *

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I started with the overpriced, well-known brand of OPKs from the pharmacy over the weekend. And today my cheapy internet OPKs arrived -- so now I can test all I want!! To keep my obsessive-self busy I've decided to test in the AM (~11am) and also in the PM (~8pm). A watched pot never boils? Maybe a watched LH won't surge too soon then...we can hope? Since I'm coming off of a mildly-medicated

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Sailing on the Potomac Originally uploaded by Kristi & Nick. Today was the second day of our sailing class - something I have wanted to do for a long time. Ouch - I'm sore all over. Partly from the bruises from clumsy shuffling around on the boat with the other students. And partly from my tired muscles, who aren't used to doing much of anything these days. So it's almost 8:30pm and

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Just started OPKs today to monitor for my LH surge. It feels so weird to go back to using them again. And it's been so long that I forget details about them -- when is the best time in the day to do it -- late morning? I'll have to go & research. So now I'm just waiting to surge -- and the longer I take the more likely that I'll be able to stick to our schedule. A week from now (CD17) would

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I've been having trouble posting & leaving comments ever since upgrading to blogger beta. So hopefully this works. So my driving confessions, as requested...I'll start with a little bit of background. I grew up in NJ in a family and community of fast drivers (in high school I remember being passed by a cop when I "slowed down" to 75mph on the turnpike). As I learned in my driving class the other

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A tired dog is a good dog... Originally uploaded by Kristi & Nick. Wow - it is is painful to think of how many days I need to wait to ovulate - 7-10 days? I do hope it's later than sooner so that the dates work out with the lap & co-culture biopsy...but it's a true test for the impatient. Especially one without a lot to do right now.So in the mean time I guess I'll keep busy by:1)

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Looks like DH's new company does have IF coverage (yay!), but we still need to see if the timing works out for the lap & IVF -- since they both need precertification and it's scheduled for 11/2 and I most likely won't be covered until 11/1 -- at the earliest. Also it would be out-of-network with my new RE though since they don't really accept insurance for IF procedures (lap theoretically would

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First, I am so sad for Serenity, but still so impressed with her positive attitude and amazing inner strength.And I'm really pulling for -M this cycle - more now than ever before. I hope you get wonderful news next week.---I am so glad that we are cycling with NYCDoc!! Out of everything I was most impressed with his attitude - he was open to hearing my thoughts & answering my questions - and very

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I'm also wondering if I should push for a lap now? I have a family history of endo, but haven't really had symptoms myself (only have mild-moderate cramps). It might be worth having the peace of mine knowing what is really going on inside there. After hearing about SoCo's recent experience, I'm tempted to push for this now.So many questions and so many decisions. Like my friend -M always says,

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I went to the RE's office this morning to get my blood drawn for my follow up NK testing. I talked to the nurse a bit about our cycles and now I'm a bit confused about next steps. We still do have 3 embies in the freezer and it would be fairly "easy" to do another FET...and it might take some time to get started up in NYC anyway... option 1push to cycle in NYC ASAPpro: sooner we get started

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On Friday as we were heading out of town I did get the call from the RE. BFN. I actually just let him leave a message because we were in the car with friends. He said he's not sure why it didn't work but we can talk more in person to determine next steps. I'll probably do that next week when I have some time. I was only a minor mess over the weekend -- a bit depressed after an extended

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So today is the day. It feels a bit anticlimatic. Normally I'm pretty upset when I go into the RE for the beta, knowing what the outcome will be and holding back tears until I can get back to my car. But I was completely fine and even joked around with the nurses this morning. I'll probably get the call when we're on the road. Not sure if I really need to ask anything - normally I'd ask about

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Wine Tasting (Montalcino) Originally uploaded by Kristi & Nick. Guess I better wait until tomorrow for a glass of wine, right?

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Another HPT this morning and...another BFN. And I started spotting very lightly (which I never do on PIO/suppositories). :(DH and I talked more last night and he's fully supportive of whatever I want to do for our upcoming cycles -- he just doesn't want to spend the next five years doing IVF. That works for me! So we're good. And we are adjusting some of our financial plans to prepare for

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Last night the acupuncturist took my pulse and say "Oh! you have a very clear rolling pulse so you are definitely pregnant (!)...............or have some kind of phlegm issue, like a stomach ache" Um yeah, my stomach was bothering me all day, thanks. And I didn't POAS again this morning as planned and immediately regretted it after I started peeing. I really, really, really hope that my HPT

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Today has been a productive day! I've somehow managed to get some work done (gasp) AND I made some progress on "plan B":- scheduled follow-up with my Endo (Levoxyl rx is running out)- scheduled appt with TopNYCDoc for early November (sooner if I get all of my records up there - and there is a cancellation)- organized a copy of my records (except for latest FET) for TopNYCDoc; it's ready to send!

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Maggie's Paw Originally uploaded by Kristi & Nick. I woke up early feeling very nauseous and crampy this morning and felt compelled to HPT. And just as almost every bone in my body expected, BFN. I'm strangely not upset at all. Didn't even shed a tear. I just immediately went into planning out next steps - AKA "plan B". I think I'll do another FET (natural?) down here while waiting

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Had my last luteal bloodwork today - both went down but the nurse said they are still fine and it's typical for them to fluctuate so no need to adjust meds: E2 = 300 P4 = 29current plans for the week are: 9/26 - acupuncture & finish a couple urgent tasks at work (last potential productive day) 9/27 - POAS (11dp3dt) 9/28 - acupuncture 9/29 - beta (13dp3dt) & leave for vacation with friends

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Lazy Dog DaysOriginally uploaded by Kristi & Nick. We had a nice lazy weekend. I had some family come down to celebrate my b-day and we mostly just sat around - great hosts, huh? Good thing my family is laid back and doesn't care. I did get a chance to play with my new camera (b-day present!) though...poor Maggie has been a captive subject.So in less than 5 days I will KNOW if this FET worked or

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The TH is sold and now officially off of our list of worries!! Phewwwww!! Not sure if we'll do another residential investment property after this, but we did learn a lot. It's just a huge relief to not have to deal with it anymore!!! It seems that all of the issues hanging over our heads a few months ago keep getting resolved. Still don't know what will happen with our biggest issue (IF), but if

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Dinner was nice. I was a big idiot though and didn't read the menu closely. NOT a good thing to do at a seafood restaurant when you have shellfish allergies. So I had to send my dinner back and ask for a less-deadly version. Ooops! But the waiter was super nice and even gave us little anniversary gift at the end (a mug, copy of the special anniversary menu - thanks for reminding me of my error,

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Today our embyros (if they are still alive) are 1 week old. They are hopefully hatching and starting to think about implanting in the next day or two. Maybe if I'm polite to them, they will stick around? So we are having an anniversary dinner tonight (I borrowed the restaurant idea from SoCo!). The first in our restaurant celebration marathon...we've picked out a few different places that we

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"Women are like tea bags. They don't know how strong they are until they get into hot water."Eleanor RooseveltThis is by far my favorite quote of all time...and I've discovered it under the caps of the two Honest Teas that I had over this past week weekend. I also included this quote on the invitation to a ladies tea that I hosted prior to our wedding. It was a little non-traditional - I hosted

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I am amazed at just how little I feel after the ET. I guess with fresh IVF cycles my ovaries are still all jacked up causing some twinges...but I feel absolutely nothing going on down there after our FET. It's actually a nice calmness. I had some crampiness for about a week leading up to the ET but now it's all quiet. Maybe it was the acu? Maybe the valium & motrin? Anyway, I'm enjoying it. :)I

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Nick and I were joking around that I need to wear around one of those obnoxious yellow "baby on board" signs now. ;)Today went very smoothly -- my first acupuncture session (and valium) made me very very relaxed. And the second acu session turned me into jelly.So they thawed the two double straws and all four embyros survived. They were each 8-cells before freezing. And seemed to recover fairly

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I can't believe our transfer is TOMORROW!! I'm so nervous/excited!! I did just get an acupuncture treatment (with spinal heat packs) to calm me down. I feel alseep on the table it was so relaxing. I woke myself up when I started snoring - oops! Thank you allergies!So we've been doing the PIO for a couple of days now -- and we've been slackers about it. In previous cycles we had an extensive

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The system board on my laptop died last night and I won't get a loaner until tomorrow (hopefully)...so I spent almost all day OFFline... It was a very odd feeling. Anyway, I'll catch up tomorrow when I get access again!Off to do our first PIO for this cycle!! And my acupuncturist is really kicking it into gear now! :)

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I've been working on this post for a week or so...Serenity's 100 gave me inspiration to finish it up...1. I had a hard time thinking of a blog name.2. I searched high and low for a wise quote for inspiration.3. Instead of finding inspiration from a great philosopher or leader, I found inspiration in Robin Williams (yes, Mork/Mrs. Doubtfire)4. But the quirkiness suits me.5. I hate shopping -

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So I triggered last night about 30 seconds before we left to go to the Redskins game. Our friends were actually waiting downstairs for us when we did it and our dog was bouncing around on the bed. DH is such a pro with a steady hand that I didn't even feel it at all! We tailgated and had fun with our friends...but I am not a fan of all of the drunken freaks and second-hand smoke. I'm lobbying

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Looks like my ovaries partied it up over the weekend and now I have nice big fat 19mm follicle!! And my lining looked "gorgeous" - triple stripe & 11+mm. When the RE saw my lining he got all excited and said "I want to get those embryos in there RIGHT NOW!"Anyway the RE thinks we'll trigger tonight!!!! I stopped by the pharmacy on the way to work to get a refill. And depending what time we need

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No more hives -- ended up taking Benadryl at work because I was so itchy.My follicles are a teeny tiny bit bigger -- I now have a 13mm & 14mm...and my lining is like 8.1mm or something like that... RE is still optimistic but my doubts grow each day (unlike my follicles). Also I've been having menstrual-like cramping for the past couple of days. That concerns me as well.Just realized that I don't

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I woke up this morning with a hives all over my body and phlegm in the back of my throat - and I can't clear it out. It makes me wonder if something is happening with immune system right now? Are they related? I wonder if I should get my NKs rechecked again... Anyway, this is all overshadowed by the fact that today is FRIDAY! TGIF!!!!!!!!! This weekend we have some fun stuff planned:- RE appt

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Well my ovaries aren't nearly as happy as they were on Lupron - it's CD11 and I still don't have a dominant follicle... And this AM it looked like I had less # of follicles than 2 days ago...and my largest ones don't seem any bigger (12-13mm)... My lining did get a little thicker (8mm).Funny because last night I had a dream that we got pregnant and woke up all hopeful and positive about this

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These natural FETs are almost...boring...compared to a fresh or even medicated cycle. I went in again today (CD9) for another peek. I have a few follicles that are starting to grow (between 11-13) and my lining is looking good (7). And there's really nothing for me to do except to wait and then go back in for another visit in a few days. No adjustments to meds. Hey - no meds! No needles.

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I was pleasantly surprised at yesterday's RE appt. I went in expecting that my body was still misbehaving and I'd just get cancelled again. But my ovaries have calmed down and everything looked like it should for early part of the cycle. So I go back in again tomorrow (Tuesday, CD9) for another peek. Glad to be in the game at least!

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...and I love long weekends...and I love taking off Fridays...so I'm feeling pretty good right about now. AND I'm not feeling nearly as sorry for myself today. :) I'm still doubtful about the cycle, but we'll just wait to see how things look on Sunday. I've given up on my anti-inflammatory diet for this cycle -- too many of my fav comfort foods were on my no-no list. But I'm still taking my

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...for this cycle. All day my body has been feeling weird (crampy, ovulation-like pangs, tired, grumpy) so I'm thinking that everything is all screwed up in there. We had a big celebration at work today for my project that is wrapping up. And I just couldn't stand to be there and pretend to be happy. So I just walked out. I just thought of everything that I did to make that project successful.

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LOVE IT when my RE and I have similar thoughts!We're going for the natural FET with this current cycle!! So no meds for now and I go back in on CD7. We'll use a little trigger shot to ensure ovulation when it looks like I'm about to ovulate....and if everything is looking good then we'll do the transfer a few days later. But there is a lot of risk that my body may not behave (again) so it

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Well my regular RE is back from Scotland and looking very happy & relaxed. He was also extra chatty (which I love because then I get more details!). My follicles are still growing (up to 15mm), but I'm guessing that my E2 has dropped since I did get my period yesterday. He says my body responded strangely to Lupron and that I have very strong ovaries. Which is a good thing in general -- just

sparknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29786090.post-1156774094984542632006-08-28T10:08:00.000-04:002006-10-11T10:51:14.072-04:00

After feeling crampy all weekend, I got my period this morning. Very light, but it's there...so I'm assuming I go back in tomorrow for CD2... MUCH MUCH earlier than I was expecting...so we'll see what the REs say after their big pow-wow today...

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Based on a quick conversation this AM, the RE thinks we might be able to try something this cycle (assuming my follicles actually continue to develop)...so he is reviewing my chart in detail today (my primary RE is golfing in Scotland this week)...So what might happen is that I'll ovulate on my own next week (plus maybe a little trigger shot for fun), and then a couple days later they'll do the

sparknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29786090.post-1156359764650006652006-08-23T15:02:00.000-04:002006-10-11T10:51:13.943-04:00

have I mentioned lately how much I hate my body?---I was too busy feeling sorry for myself & crying at work to provide more detail. My follicles are all continuing to grow and my E2 is rising. I've asked the nurse/RE if we can convert to an IUI or a natural FET and should hear back tomorrow. As much as I was OK with any outcome this morning, I'm really not. I'm crushed to not even have the

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After a grueling 2 weeks of work, including a 36-hour straight stretch over the weekend, my big project at work is now wrapping up. And I survived. Phew... Now I can get back to worrying about my FET and all of that fun stuff. :)My TSH looked perfect (1.1) but I will go back in on 8/30 just to make sure that it hasn't spiked up.Apparently my ovaries are really really REALLY happy on Lupron --

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Looking back I guess we've really been preparing for this cycle for a long time now...but I think it's finally hitting me that WE'RE CYCLING! (guess the big deduction from our checking account and the daily Lupron shots weren't enough of a clue)So I'm starting to refine our game plan.My latest FET prep list:- Recheck my TSH (will hear results on Monday; will check again on 8/30)- Recheck my NK

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I went in to my RE's office this morning for my baseline (CD2) visit. It was a little bizarre being there again. Apparently even though I was on BCP and Lupron for a couple weeks I still have "strong ovaries". He's also putting me on Estrogen to keep my uterus happy because we extended out my transfer date. Turns out it's good timing for my RE too because he's going to be golfing in Scotland

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My heart aches for Serenity. Her mantra from a couple days ago ("I will be a mom someday") is still ringing in my mind. I know she will find her way there.-------And I'm in & out of denial that we are cycling again. I'm so f'in scared to think that we're going through this again. Especially with a FET - do they really work?!?! So when I'm accepting that we're "in the game" I'm worried about our

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